Yesterday while sitting at my desk, trying to be a diligent working woman, I was startled by the oh so familiar "phone to desk" vibration...whir, whir, whir. I knew due to the duration that this was a phone call. Hip, hip hooray I thought. Looking down at the number my heart securely lodged itself into my throat...it was Cole, Nichole's agent. All of a sudden a rush of thoughts ran through my head in the three seconds it took me to answer the call. His first words, "Ok Ali, this is not THE call, but I wanted to give you an update." Relief and disappointment set in simultaneously which at the time seemed like a weird combo, but now, for me at least, it makes sense. He was giving me some important updates on the medical process for Nichole, as well as letting me know that if she hasn't had this baby by Friday she is going to go to the hospital and hopefully they will keep her there to induce her for labor. WHOA! An actual date!! Some kind of odd certainty. As with every aspect of our lives on baby up to this point, there has not been much of a shred of certainity. Now yes, I do understand again nothing is set in stone. She could go into labor now or they might not schedule an induction date until next week, but still...Just the thought that by this time next week I might be holding a precious little gift from God that I will be graced to be able to call my child melts my heart on so many levels. Last night while figuring out how to install the car seat with Leah I was falling a little more and more in love with a child that I haven't even met. This has been a long and grueling journey over the past six years and now we are talking days. Wow. Days, what a beautiful word. Other than that I am frantically figuring out living arrangements for our stay and praying that God helps us to stay strong and focused during this exciting and terrifying time.
Hoping for an August 24th Birthday Celebration :-),
Ali
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